With Mother’s Day approaching, I can’t help but think about the profound, and life changing experience of becoming a mother.
This is my oldest, Lyla, she made me a momma. I could write a million page novel on what an AMAZING human she is. She is innately emphatic, caring, and kind.
I’m BEYOND blessed to be her mommy.
Here’s a weight I carry, and I KNOW I’m not alone. I had a traumatic delivery. I was unconscious, and don’t remember meeting Lyla until a day later. I had significant trouble breast feeding. For the first few months of her life, I spent most of my days, in my home, terrified.
Motherhood, I assumed would be a natural and easy transition. It wasn’t for me. I’m THRILLED for those of you who gracefully fell into parenthood. I did not, and I carry that guilt. In the moments I should’ve enjoyed this beautiful newborn, I was constantly stricken with fear.
Life isn’t perfect, and anyone who portrays that on the socials or IRL, are not sharing the whole picture AND THAT'S OK! But please, don’t measure yourself but these unrealistic standards. I’m not judging, for many, they use this as a means to cope. I get it. I’ve been there.
Those who are struggling, those who did not have the perfect delivery or newborn experience I SEE YOU!
This little lady, her sister and brother are my WHY! Its true what they say, the days are long but the years fly by. I would love to freeze them in time, and truly embrace all of their innocent and genuine goodness. Their yummy newborn smell, their little toes, and fat baby folds (yummy.) I’m humbled by their unconditional love. In the moments that I feel like a COMPLETE FAILURE! They remind me of how fortunate and abundantly blessed I am!
Lyla, Sadie, and Wyatt! You are undoubtedly the best part of my life!
Happy Mother’s Day to all of you!
Especially those mommas, who struggle, who feel guilt, who feel inadequate, who battle with anxiety, who feel like they aren’t doing enough....
You are seen️
Sending LOVE and HUGS️
-Kim Ginsberg, CycleStar at CycleBar West Chester